Spies

In a broken relationship, most people who I have talked to had a friend or close family member to spy on the other. For what purpose do they do this? It is no longer their business. Also, once they see what it is they are looking for, they end up hurt or enraged. Why go through this self-torture? I am only human, but I do my best to stay away from this.

I don't want spies looking at T, for the reason that I know I will hear something that I do not want to hear. The first was my cousin, she was looking at T's MySpace page and then text me what T had post on someone else's page. It was, "I miss you so much. :*" I know what I says because, well I am human, I looked at the other person's MySpace page. I went a couple of days trying to not look at it, but I caved in. The day my cousin text me and told me what T said, I told her that I do not want to hear or know what she is doing. The reason wasn't because I didn't care, I did, it just hurt too much to know.

Now last night, a former co-worker of mine text me out of the blue asking if T and I were together again. I said no. He then replied that he saw her "Kissing up some need" (I think he meant to say nerd...) I told him, "Yeah, that's R." Then the conversation ended there.

Here is my point. I do not want to know what T is doing. I do wonder of it a lot, but I rather think it may happen, instead of knowing it actually happened.

In another note... invasion of privates. Again, some looks in their ex's belongings, searching for remnants or hints to anther person. That is disrespectful, even if that person is thought to be cheating, If that is the case, ask and if it persists, break up. This sounds easy but it is not. But back to my point... I spend a lot of time at T's house, because of my two boys. It seems too easy to "snoop" around, but I don't. It is not my business and it is not my stuff. She tends to leave things out, now whether it is intentional or not, I don't know. The other thing is that I do not want to see what I do not want to know.

And something else, it sometime seems like she leave thing out on purpose. To see if I will look. Don't get me wrong, I am curious, but I wont look. As it is, I swear that she may have a recorder or something in her rooms. But regardless, I will not snoop in someone else's business, and I do not want spies. What she does is her business, not mine. And if I want to know something, we are still close enough where I can ask HER and let her tell me or not.